Chapter 5 - Brix's Melancholy

How come he liked me? I looked so stressed by the past week. I don't even know I look attractive!

Teresa? Are you still there? You’re not replying anymore… :( 

That message from Brix awoke Teresa’s subtle imaginations. I have to play cool. Pretend I am not into him.

Teresa: Oh, I’m sorry. I was transferring the pictures now. That’s why I’ve replied late. :)
Brix: Oh okay… Our brother said we are leaving to the airport by 7:00am. Can I see you for the last time?

Teresa: Wow! 7:00am? Hmmm… so, do you want me to go there or you could go here?
Brix: Oh I don’t think I could go there because our brother wants us to stay here instead. Won’t you mind if you’re going to come here? I got something for you. Some souvenir from me…

Teresa: I’ll try… I hope I could wake up early because it is already 1:30am in my clock.

Brix: Oh please do… This may be the last time we could see eachother. You know?

Teresa: Don’t flatter yourself! What made you think I want to see you anyway? Hahaha! I am just kidding. :)

Brix: You’re crazy. Hahaha! Please do come, okay? My friends want to see you too. I am talking about you now.

Teresa: TO them? Why?

Brix: Because I want to? Hahaha!

Teresa: okay?

Then Teresa felt tired all of a sudden. She is trying to fight it but then the sudden exhaustion knocked her senses.

Teresa: Hey, Brix. I wanted to text you more ---

She dropped to bed while leaving her phone unattended with that message. She didn’t finish typing it but now she's sleeping like she had never sleep before.

 Brix flooded her phone with messages. He is wondering why she didn't reply anymore. But still she doesn’t wake up.

 “Oh, I guess she fell asleep now.” Brix said to himself while he is lying on his bed thinking of Teresa. He was smiling then suddenly a frown could be spotted on his face. I hope she’s like Teresa. I miss her but I don’t think she misses me. Then he started browsing on his cellphone’s camera taken pictures. He’s looking at this certain pretty and chubby girl. Then he started to cry.

--to be continued

Chapter 4 - The Divulgence

The scene is just as perfect as it is… two strangers dancing slowly in the supple melody. I have never felt this way before. Him… Infront of me… holding my hips… while I am looking at his placid eyes… his face draws near into mine… and--

“Are you okay?” Brix suddenly burst into Teresa’s superb thoughts.

“Uh of course I am okay! Why? Am I turning into a monster now?” Teresa didn’t even know how she get along with her sense of humor.

“Ha ha ha! I didn’t know you’re funny! What if I told you that you are indeed turning into a monster now?” Brix answered.

“What?! You got to be kidding me!” then Teresa pinched Brix’s arm.

“Ouch! Oh wow! You are indeed a monster! Just kidding.” Brix smiled and look sincerely on Teresa’s deep brown eyes.

“Why you’re looking at me like that?” Teresa was puzzled by how Brix look at her.

“I don’t even know…” Brix said.

“Oh okay? You are weird.” Teresa replied.

“But there is more than meets the eye.” Brix said.

And then while the “Iris” by Goo Goo Dolls playing; a voice suddenly breaks into Brix and Teresa’s moment.

“Attention Maritians, I hope we could still continue this night celebration of Marist Spirit but I am afraid that our assigned time for this has finally come to its end. Everyone is requested to go back to their respective delegations and allocated Marist brothers for the attendance. To all Marist brothers, please abide with your responsibilities and make sure that your students are safe and complete in number. Thank you and have a great night Maritians. All to Jesus through Mary.”

“Oh well, I guess this is it. I have to go to the convent now… I still got work to do.” Teresa told him.

“Okay. But can we keep in touch then? Here…” Brix hand over his cellphone to Teresa for her to type in her contact number.

As Teresa key in her number to his phone. Teresa also got Brix’s number.

“We’ll just keep in touch then? I will miss you Teresa.” Brix smiled.

There is something surreal about how Brix’s smile. Its genuineness crashed into Teresa’s heart for some bizarre reason. Wow. He’s amazing. It may be a bit odd for two strangers to put in such connection for they only knew each other for just a speck of time but they both know they are up to something. Something that is very neutral and emblematic.

12:00 MN – 2:00 AM of January 21, 2007

The first thing that Teresa did was to face off her very reliable laptop for her next and last job for that tiring and stressful event of her entire school life. She has to transfer all the pictures that she had taken for that night from her digital camera. While doing so, her cellphone suddenly beeps.

Hey, how are you? Its Brix. Are you doing okay in there?

“Oh my Goodness! He texted me!” Teresa was in great surprise because she thought that Brix would actually forget about her. Then she started replying back to his text message.

Hello there, Brix. I am doing okay but I still got to finish my work for tonight. I have to edit all the pictures that I have taken a while ago. Or else, our brother would turn into a monster. Hahaha!

Then they exchanging text messages. The beauty of unlimited texting for a day offered by their cellphone’s network.

Brix: Really? Your brother could turn into a monster?

Teresa: Yeah, he could. Hahaha!

Brix: That is so cool! I wanna see him turn into a monster!

Teresa: You know I am just kidding, right?

Brix: Hahaha! C’mon. I know you are. You know what, do not be serious. Life is fun! Live it to the fullest.

Teresa: Who told you I am serious? Hahaha! What happened to that, “There is more than meets the eye” Mr. Fun? Hahaha!üü

Brix: Whoa! Okay!? You got me in there. Hmmm. You know what, you are very interesting to me.

Teresa: Why? Are you a mad scientist? Are you going to conduct a scientific research on me? Or to our brother? Hahaha!üü

Brix: Seriously. Ü

Teresa: Oh, ok. Hey! You could be serious too! Hahaha! Ok? Hmmm.. What made you think I am interesting?

Brix: Just the way you are. Too bad we are leaving tomorrow to Marikina. I never get to see you anymore. :(

Teresa: Yeah, me too. I think it would take long for us to see again.

Brix: I told myself I should have met you the first day I have seen you. I hate myself.

Teresa: What?! You actually seen me the first day? How?

Brix: You didn’t just noticed me because you are way busy touring us around your school. You are our tour guide, right? Do you want me to tell you what is the exact color of your shirt that you wore for the last 5 days of Marist Meet?

Teresa: Are you stalking me or something? Hahaha!!! JOKE.

Brix: Maybe? I don’t even know why I want to check you out.

Teresa: Whoa. That’s weird. You are possessed! LOL. (Laughing out Loud)

Brix.: Yes, I might be possessed but I am serious. I like you, Teresa.

And when Teresa read the last message, her heart pounded like a hammer. Oh. My. Goodness.

--to be continued

Chapter 3 - The Rendezvous

I wish this thing would not last forever. I am beginning to get tired of it. The next days are total mess. Lack of manpower, stuffs needed and even their moderator is not responding to Teresa’s necessities. How am I going to survive this catastrophe?

January 20, 2009

Today is the last day of Marist Meet 2007. The delegates are now in their final battles according to their particular event. Cheers and screams are very audible in Teresa’s school. Finally, Teresa’s stressful week is going to come to a conclusion. Last day… Yes! I can finally breathe tomorrow…

After the morning activities, their Marist brother went on to check Teresa’s works and told her that there is going to be a SOCIAL NIGHT among all the Marist Schools tonight. It is a sort of victory party for the successful event. Oh yes, it is not yet the end. She knows she has to do her best in this last gala of the whole mêlée. The Social Night should be the night where all the contestants from various events would enjoy and have that relaxation from the strenuous assessments they had for that looooong week. Oh yeah, good for them but not to me. Teresa is very much stressed and sleepless. But she has to do it. She just has to…

Evening comes.

Everything is almost right. All the delegates are in attendance. Some are ecstatic, some are not quite sure of the turnout of their performance and their places. This is very typical in a competition like this although this event is not about the competition but the common goal that is being aimed. And of course it is also expected that some are about the competition or what we commonly call “show-offs”.

Teresa is holding tightly to her digital camera to take pictures of the who’s who of each event. It is also considered as an awarding night and she did not expect that. So, she must cover this thing up together with her colleagues. As she takes pictures, she suddenly notices this guy from Marist Marikina. He seems so nice and very funny too. His from his school’s basketball team and what is distinct about him is that he is wearing pink. Teresa believes that if a guy is wearing pink he may be interesting and fun. Why I can’t help but to look at this guy?

“And the OVER-ALL champion is… MARIST SCHOOL OF MARBEL!” it was Teresa’s school who won in general. To some they assume this is predictable because it is the HOST school. It has great aspect to be a winner – when you are in your HOMECOURT. And so, the party begins. Good music plays like crazy and everybody should dance. The Social Night begins.

Teresa is going around the gymnasium where the bash is being held. Taking pictures of everybody who is having fun and having the great time of their night. For they know that tomorrow is a day of departure. While taking pictures she suddenly bumped into this guy. “Hey there! Please take a picture of us!” the guy said. “Sure!” Teresa smiled because the guy happened to be her CRUSH.

“Hi, by the way, I’m Brix and you are?.”

“I’m Teresa,”

“Nice to meet you, Teresa. Come on. Let’s take a picture."

Sudden blush went on to Teresa’s cheek. I didn’t know I would actually get to know him… As she goes, Brix is following her. She can’t help but to feel awkward in a sense that he is so cute for her. But well, that’s just the way it is.

The music plays hiphop and r&bs. Everybody is dancing the night out on the dance spot.

“Can we dance?” Brix told Teresa.

“Uhm… I am not sure about it… I got to finish my job first.” Teresa answered.

“Come on, take a break. You’ve been so stressed for the past days. All you do is work, work and guess what WORK! Do you want get old fast? Dance it out, Teresa!” Brix told her. So he actually been spying on me or something? How did he know that I am all work? I didn’t even notice him looking at me.

“Okay then… If you insist.” Teresa answered shyly.

As they go the dance floor the music suddenly becomes a slow song. What the heck? Is this some kind of a movie or something? What a timing, huh?

“Are you okay with this?” Brix asked Teresa while he seems to take her hand and go slow dancing with her.

“Uh—uhm. I don’t know…” She replied.

“Trust me…” Brix beamed to her and for some reason Teresa felt she could trust him with this.

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Chapter 2 - The Tryst

January 2007

 

Marist Meet 2007 is going to get held at Teresa’s school. Marist Meet is an event where all the Marist Schools in the country should get together for one common goal. The event is composed of variety of competitions – sports, academics and socio-cultural competitions. Since Teresa is the one who is ALWAYS-DEPEND-ON person in her school, she was assigned for the Photography, Delegation Tour Guide and Over-All Update of the event. It’s a busy almost a week for her. It is a 5-day activity, 5-day sufferings, 5-day sleepless nights and 5-day BRAIN DRAIN for her.

 

January 17, 2009, the first day of Marist Meet. The participants keep coming. Teresa is keen to get her task well done. She is used to have upright compliments from the Marist Brothers and school faculty. Her task for that day is to welcome all the delegates from diverse Marist Schools – Marist Marikina, Marist Kidapawan, Marist Cotabato, Marist Gensan and Marist Marbel (Teresa’s School). She was at her allocated site and she is getting set for her winning smile to be seen by her co-maritians. I can do this. I can do this. A vision of a solid tough girl she was but deep inside a girl who wants to have a perfect life. And she has to act her best in her school just to obtain more attention from the people around her. Then like a storm, the delegates from different schools arrive. First one who arrived is the delegates from Marist Cotabato… Marist Gensan… then there goes Marist Kidapawan and from the north, the only delegate that came by airplane – Marist Marikina. Teresa was so tired. She smiles and cheers at the every delegation that pulls in their school. Welcome to Marist School of Marbel! Your quarters is located at that side beside the school library then turn left/right and just find the name of your school posted at every door. Thank you and enjoy your stay - her undying statement that she felt like she will say it forever.

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Chapter 1 - The Raison d'être

Year 2007

Teresa*, 17 years of age, is studying at Marist School of Marbel (Co-Ed). She is a typical social-active girl. The school is depending on her on lot of things because of her natural skills and talents. In short, she is an all-time leader in their school. In terms of family life, her parents got separated for months. Her mother is a registered Civil Engineer and while the father is a businessman. She is the only child of their family. Love life? Her boyfriend is her band member (lead guitarist) and they are already together since last year. His name is Jake*. But Teresa is having a hard time keeping up to his standards and decisions. She wants to give in but she is holding on to her principles. Jake* wants to get their relationship into the “next level” because they are already together for a year. Teresa is in trouble and on the latter, she broke up with jake. If he really loved me, he would respect my decision. Teresa went on with her life as a social butterfly. Her life is now composed of school, friends and studies… until….

Stephen*, 16 years of age, studying at Marist School of Marikina (All-Boys) as a junior. He is considered as a silent bastard of their school. He is a hard-to-understand boy who is fond of having relationship with same sex or gays. Since their school is an all-boys school, he just had little experiences in dealing with girl friends. In terms of family life, his parents are both into BIG business. They are low-profile millionaire family. He has twin sisters. And he was believed to be the BLACK SHEEP of their family. He is into gambling, getting drunk and lot of bad things since the age of 11. Love life? He once had a 3 gay lovers. His parents found out about his last relationship with a gay named Harvey*  and he was grounded for like life. His whole family hated him especially her mom. He and Harvey* were together for 5 months and something unexpectedly happened to them. (You know what I mean). They broke up and he started to have relationships with girls but after a little time, they would also broke up. He never had any time being in a relationship anymore. His life is now composed of gambling, basketball, drinking and flings… until...

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* - name changed

GOD'S MESSAGE FOR ME TODAY...

On this day of your life, RYX, we believe God wants you to know...

... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

I super love this message for me. I got it from my facebook account. Hehe. Well, indeed, nothing's gonna stop me from what I want to do now. Maybe before people keep on stopping me. I am tired of living on their shadows. I have to be a butterfly now. I have to spread my wings and fly as high as I can. Show the world who and what I wanna be. God is with me. always. He never leaves me. :) 

Weee!!!! That's all for now.. Gotta go!

--ryxxie

Feelings Flow all of a Sudden.

Hmmm. Since this blog is about myself. I could say whatever I want, right? well... I went to check on my facebook account and suddenly I bumped into my EX's gf's profile. HAHA. Yes, we are friends ONLY in facebook. I have tried to ask apology to her for being mean and stuff... But guess what? SHE IS STILL COLD. HAHA. There's something wrong in her that I definitely UNDERSTAND (Haha. Think whatever you think. FRIENDS - u know it.) HAHA. Well, I was just trying to be friends with her... But she made it sound like IT WAS MY FAULT. Like, what the heck. She and my effin ex boyfriend cheated on me. OK? HAHA. Anyways, as the title of this blog goes. FEELINGS FLOW ALL OF A SUDDEN. :))

Well, I am scrolling down on her older posts and GUESS WHAT! My ex is giving her the same messages that he gave me before. Same song dedications. Same thing. ALL THE SAME THING. :)) Hmmm. Well, all I can say is that I felt on those things that he done to me before but now it was totally nothing. Talking about NO ORIGINALITY. AND HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF. HAHA. Before I moved to where I am now, I had a chat with my ex's ex girlfriend. She said, well... He did the same thing to me too. Poor new gf. TSK TSK.

I only feel sorry for the new gf. I understand her for hating me. HMMM. coz i was the same thing before when Me and My ex are still together. I was suppppper bitter with his exs too. Because they are trying to ruin our relationship. Because I guess it is HIS habit. His promises and deeds only last like I DONT KNOW. It depends on him. 2 years is such a long time for me to know him VERY WELL. :)) I just wish they would last longer than US. As they say, ONCE A CHEATER, ALWAYS A CHEATER :)) and HISTORY COULD BE REPEATED BY ITSELF :))

That's all for now. GOtta go!

--ryxxie